It really wasn’t the case at all, I can assure you that. I really don’t pursue people if they didn’t like me. I have confirmed with her many times, if I was bothering her and her answer was always no.
I want to all to think from my perspective. My assumption is she was collecting these friends and was liking all the attention they were giving her. She gate-keeping her friends to only herself and not letting us all be one group is kinda telling something I believe.
Honestly this is not the case. I have been very disconnected for the 1st year or so meeting her. Our texts spaced around hours or even days. We used to go back and forth sending delayed texts before the topics dies.
Later I have started being more active and she did the same. She was the one who said I have gotten close to her and not just my assumption.
Expectations wise, I was very clear from the start. But I am guessing she did had other expectations from how she entertained such expectations from her other friends.
Really she does feels like this type. They poke for our attention and once they get it, they want us to chase them from there on. But I kept giving her benefit of doubt all these years. I have tried separating many times too but couldn’t do it cuz she became my only friend I was close with. And she still is my only close friend who knows me deeply.
Maybe I should try picking up a hobby or something. Let’s see.